Losing somebody you love is very throbbing pain. Sometimes it may feel like the sadness will never let up. These feelings are scary, frightening and overwhelming. The journey of these feeling is a never ending process.
I feel I was extremely fortunate to have her with me in my life, as gift of God. Never thought, I will be forced to give up that gift in my life time. I am too small to understand His skit but always experienced that we have no control on certain things in our lives.
Even though, we had a very little age gap, she was my daughter, who I saw growing and establishing as time passes. As a mother would like to see her child reap with bright life with all the happiness, so did I. And I was more than a mother to her as she always said. The girl who never made anybody cries…and especially who kept me on heights all the time. And she knew I did not wish for that any time...Today leaves me with no option but only with grief that leaves a heartache no one can heal. If tears could build a flight of stairs, memories a path, I would walk right up to Heaven and bring you back again my child. It feels like a wing is cutoff and can't be replaced.
Being in shock and pain I reacted impulsively for the whole day. But then I realized she certainly was not girl of this generation…she was very strong with her values and ethics. She was always clear about her things and made her choices.
She made her place in people’s heart that will be never shared and will never die but live forever. She was said to be an Angel by her dear one; the angel who is constantly near to her loved ones to whisper to them and tell she is always close to them and her loved ones are safe in the hands of God.
And my child, my love to you remains untouched and I will always respect your thoughts, values and choices…!
